Swallow down the sorrows
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Well, it's been long since I updated. Too busy nowaday to update. Year 2 in poly is like hell. Although not as difficult as previous sems, but tonnes of assignment hangs over my head. Projects, programme writting, and worst of all, reports reports and more reports!! Never stop writing reports ever since the first lab lesson started. Hate it, but no choice. Joined kayaking again this year. Was so happy when I got selected to carry on in the team, but only to hear from the seniors that they don't expect year 2s and 3s students to be juniors. It feels like a crushing defeat after a slight victory. So again I'm out of the team, unwillingly, so regreted it that I quit last year when I had a chance. Wasted!!
Anyway, I am so busy now that even my driving skills is getting worse and worse. How am I going to pass the test. So don't want to fail, so don't want to waste all the money. Just hope I improve quickly for the remaining lessons before my test.
I'm really the most unluckiest guy out of all the friends I have. After so many unlucky things happened to me, I thought life is picking up a little. But guess what, life is just as crappy. Laptop is down for the second time, and this time I am unable to save it, cause this time its a big crack on the lcd screen. Really "WHAT THE HELL!". Also thought I got a little bit more chance on some things. Maybe somehow this time it would all work out as I hoped it would be. But I know now it's just all my wishful thinking. Although I think that it's not really the bad luck I have that caused this, I feel that the main thing is that I'm just a very lousy guy. I bring my confidence up, telling myself that I may not be the best guy, but at least I will give in my best and my all. But in the end this confidence of mine, just doesn't make things right for me.
However life must go on. So I will just have to swallow down everything and move on. Really don't know if I can let it go. Pretendence is my best skill, if you know what I mean. Pretendence is how I move on with my life without showing people how I look when I'm sad. I just hope I can really smile real wide from the bottom of my heart and not from the acts of pretendence.
Well that's it for now. Nothing to say anymore. Got to go do my work. Till next time.
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Now I really know how it is like for me. I know whatever I write here you may not see it. I also know that all along it was just me having all the wishful thinking that I might really have a chance this time. Even when people told me I should not put in much hope or told me to give up, but I just couldn't do that. Now it seems like what they say might just be true. I was never going to see the miracle happen for me.
Friday, April 4, 2008
After a month, back to update this quite blog of mine. Well, this past months have been my holidays, after work ended a month ago. I got my school results, did quite well this time, but there is still alot of room for improvements. Got my pay, but can't use it much, have to save for my driving lessons. Started my driving lessons last week, now I'm driving the car around the carpark, quite fun, but have to get use to alot of things when driving. So it not all so easy to drive a car. Hopefully the next lessons I will be able to drive out of the carpark.
School is starting in one more week time, some how I want school to start sooner, but at the same time don't want it to start so soon. Well, quite boring everyday at home. Nothing much to do. Went out a few times, spent a lot of days and nights to repair my laptop( glad that its alright now). After the holidays I will officially go into year 2 of my poly life. It's going to become even more tough than year 1, and this year I'm going to go more details about my course. Hope I will do well man.
Alright that is it for now again. So till next month!!
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Monday, March 10, 2008
Hi everyone, I'm back again. Well I think now my blog have not been viewed by anyone already. Okay, not a bad thing that no one is viewing my blog also. So many things else I wish to write beside those that I've wrote, but I couldn't cause too many people know about my blog. Well, this is the internet, so nothing much could be done anyway.
Alright, life have its ups and downs ever since my exam started. My exam I would say I had done okay except for that one module 'EPC'!!! Result is not out yet, it's suppose to come out by the 19th this month. So i just have to wait on. Hope I get a few 'A's this time, or even a distinction. Haha. after the exam, semester 2 just ended like that. That is it for year 1. And there is 2 more years to go. Now I am working at science centre under this event call rip off save the earth. Quite fun, you get to tear things let printers and computers up. Fun as it is, the clearing part is the biggest headache. Phew..! Other classmates of mine are also working under science centre. So not so bad, got people to accompany me eat and go home. Hope my pay come faster. So broke now a days.
Okay, also I have continue on with my driving lessons, I have opened an acc under CDC, paid for the practical test fee, and apply for the PDL. PDL stands for Provisional Driving Licence it just a piece of paper saying that you can learn to drive on the road. Well, now have to worry about the lessons ahead. Don't know where to find money to pay. Haiz..
Well, that's it for now. Before I leave, I want to congratulate some of my friends for finally making it into a poly. Kok Hong and Shi Jei got into NYP Information Technology, Yuanzi got into NYP Digital Media Design, Wen Cai got into SP Property Development and Facility Management, Wei Peng got into RP Biomedical Science and Alex got into NYP Multimedia Infocomm Technology. So CONGRATULATION!!! For those who will be in NYP, haha, will see your quite often in school cause I'm also an NYP student. Haha, okay, now it's really good bye.
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I knew it is going to be like that, but I hanged on, but now I finally realise that the one in your heart had been there for very long and it was never me. So now I can only see where fate and nature brings me.
Thursday, January 24, 2008
HELLO!!! I've been out of transmission for a very very long time. Have not updated my blog since like "LAST YEAR"!! Hahaha. And alot of your keep saying why I didn't update my blog. Well, two words, "Busy" and "Lazy". Haha. Very busy ever since my common test. got my exam coming, drving test coming, German oral coming. SO SO SO many things coming. And when I got abit of time to spare, I was too lazy to think of what to update. So..Haha, here it is. My reason to why my blog is so dead for so long. Sorry guys(=
Oh, and I guess alot of you should have notice by now that I no longer have a tagboard in my blog. Reason?? Okay, cause got alot of spamers, some are my own friends, some are unknown people. And there is this one person whom I don't know who the hell he or she is, came and tag some wierd link to some website. I don't know what website it is, but I guess its some no good website. Well, don't care. This is the kind of things you get when you do blogging. So to save trouble, I took the tagboard out. Haha, so will I ever put a tagboard back in my blog, hmmmm...I will give it some thoughts. Seek some professional advice and do some brainstorming. Hahaha. Just talking nonsense. Well, I will put it back when I think I should. So you guys just have to have a little more patience, yepp!
Okay, now I'm struggling with my school work, cause exam is like coming real soon. and suddenly every modules become more difficult and tougher than ever. Haha, it always does. Having German written test and oral both next week, gonna practice like mad. But one thing I'm looking forward very the much is Chinese New Year! Haha, ang bao!! Okay, well, that's about all now. So long never update, so this time write abit longer, so won't look so sian. Haha, maybe your read halfway also lazy to continue reading. Okay, got to go now. Till next time(which I also don't know when).
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Having so many doubts, but without any answers..(",)
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Hello!! Okay, okay, I know. My blog had been very quiet for the past one month. So now I decided to come back and update. Well, got nothing much to blog actually, just that now holidays has arrive for me. Two weeks, yepp. short and quite pack. Got projects to do. Common test was over too. I think I did okay for this sem's common test, except for EPC. Haiz, mcq, and yet I end up guessing my answer. Haha. Okay, I only got this much to say for now.
Until next time than.
Laters(:
In life, there are many wonders..Happiness is one of them..(",)
Saturday, November 17, 2007
HELLO!!! Long time never update already. So I'm back to write somemore things inside. Okay, gonna write about three days of this week that happy things hapened to me.
14 / 11 / 2007Okay, today was the day I took my BTT( Basic Theory Test ) for driving. And I passed!! Haha, I was so afraid I am going to fail before the test. I kept reading and reading the theory book. When I was taking the test I realise it was rather more ofa general knowledge kind of test. There were a few qns that I felt was a little tricky, and was hesitating for quite awhile to click on the "END TEST" tab. Well, in the end I passed the test, so did Kok Hong. Haha.
16 & 17 /11 / 2007Okay, on this both days I celebrated my birthday with two group of friends. My poly classmates and my secondary classmates. Well on the actual day, which is 16 of Nov, I went out with my poly classmates. Went to fish and co to eat, the staffs there have a "special" way to celebrate a birthday customer. Haha, after that went to east coast and they made me and Wang He(also another birthday boy) drink up their strongest cocktail there, thought we would both become "mabok", haha, but the both of us end up alright. Spent the night at alvin's house. Sleeping in his room is like sleeping in a fridge. SO COLDDDD LA!!! Haha,woke up inthe morning with running nose.
That brings me to today. After I reached home from alvin's house, I sit down for awhile, than have to go get ready to meet my secondary friends. Went to eat steamboat at bugis, ate so much man. The food was nice. Haha, after that went back home.
So tired now la. Going to sleep soon. So that was what happened for this few interesting days for me. Want to thank all you guys who celebrated my birthday with me. I had fun and it was all worth while. And also a BIG BIG thank you for all my friends out there for all your wishes and blessings. Okay, I'll end here.
Laters(:
In life, there are many wonders..Happiness is one of them..(",)
Sunday, November 4, 2007
Hello!! It has been a long long time since I last update my post. Okay, so lets start now. Hmmm, nothing much happened on the whole of last week, only two events was on friday I went to have steamboat with my ex-schoolmates, which is ronnie, kok hong, yuan zi, wen cai, kialeng and sophia. Well at first wanted to have it at one of bugis steamboat restaraunt, but the queue was so damn damn long man! Haha, than we decided to go eat at seoul garden, but than again when we saw the amount that each person have to pay, we decided to forget about seoul garden. Finally, we all end up at marina south the usual place to have our steamboat, well, that was about it for friday.
Than on saturday, which was yesterday, went out with my poly classmates to the central at clark quay, stayed there and roamed around for quite awhile and we than decided to chill out at the balcony. discussed for a long time than decided to go into the place, haha. All of us had cocktails except for Ming Hui, cause he can't take alcohol, he is allergic to it. So he had mocktail instead. We sat there and drank and chat and than played some games and did some forfiets which were I have to say, daring and disgusting. Lucky I was alert enough to avoid doing forfiets. Haha, Went home at about 2 plus.
All was happy and fun and good for yesterday, until 4am this morning, can't sleep when I reached home so roll in my bed for hours, than at around 4am, I had an upset stomach and the next thing I know was I spent the rest of the night in the toilet, until daybreak this morning. Than now the upset stomach has stop, but fever came to me, so now I'm running a 38.2°C fever and feel like dying la. Okay, I will stop here for now, got to gorest up abit man.
Laters(:
In life, there are many wonders..Happiness is one of them..(",)